Indagatio Veri

Expecting the bitter bite of cold, I was pleasantly surprised to find the water was very comfortable to be in. It wasn't long before I had dipped my head beneath the surface. I felt the silky water moved against my skin, and ripples moved and undulated away from me as I brushed the surface of the lake with my hand. I noticed the hint of fall colors just beginning to show themselves in the trees, and took pleasure in the rustling leaves as the wind played through the branches. The sun reflected and danced over the water, and I felt a deep pleasure well up within me; wonder bubbling to take expression in my heart and on my face. My last couple blogs contain my theological journey into understanding that the Gospel is the good news that we are united to the Father, Son, and Spirit, not that we somehow need to make that happen. Furthermore, not only are we wrapped up into the relationship of the trinity, but Christ is actually inside of us! We aren't relating to a distant deity t...

I have gone through a huge paradigm shift over the last couple years when it comes to seeing and experiencing God. This hasn't only been an intellectual overhaul, but an experiential one as well. I have always thought of God as being 'out there'. What do I mean by that? I mean that I have primarily interpreted by thoughts, emotions, and experiences as originating in myself; and therefore since I start from a place of independence, any interaction and pursuit of God has to be towards a God that is 'outside of myself'. Does that make any sense? Believing I am alone; I have prayed and worshiped and interpreted my experience from the standpoint that God is 'out there' somewhere and I want to get Him in with me and my life. The reason I have thought that way is why we all do. First off, I often feel separate from God! We are all such natural control freaks governed by shame and anxiety, that our experience tells us that we are alone. I often feel alone, feel li...